What Rest?

So I was in the living room watching some show on some ghost busers wanna be.

Mother comes & sits next to me. Shes quiet, Im quiet, just watching tv.

Commercials are on now, I get up, go to kitchen to grab some yogurt.

 My moms starts talking about last night.

"I couldnt move my body, a ghost visited me" mother says.

I nod  and ask "Why didnt you yell or something?".

Mom explains how she couldn't talk or move anything except for her eyes.

Sure MOM, sure. I dont believe, go back to watching tv.

Ofcourse, we all know what happens to non-believers.

Anyways...so shows over, I get up & go to bed. Nothing. I sleep like a baby.

Next day I asked my mother what do people usually do when they experience that.

She says to put a pair of scissors wide open next to your bed.

Ok are you suppose to stab the damn ghost?

Nevermind the fact that its a ghost, how you gona stab it if you cant move?

Nice one mom, nice one. *sigh

So a few weeks pass. Its a typical day.

Go to school, take bus back home, get home, eat, study, sleep.

So night falls, Im tired. So Im gladits  night, Im...*yawnn..sleepy.

I go to bed. Bedroom is pitch black, silent, calm.

I dont remember what I was dreaming of, I just remember waking up,

Gasping for air, and then I cant move nor speak.

I have my eyes wide open. I cant see anything, just darkness.

I panic. Im scarred. Helpless. I wanna hit my sister who's sleeping next to me.

I cant lift my arm up. Why cant I move my arm?

My chest hurts, I cant breathe. The lack of oxygen is makeing my head hurt.

I can feel tears running down my cheek but Im not making a sound.

What the heck is going on? Somethings on top of me, applying weight on me.

It seems like forever, time seems non-existant.

Does this thing wanna kill me? Im sure Im a goner. The old hags got me.

I dont know how much time passed, I just remember breathing heavily.

Im still in shock. Scarred. I sob. No one hears me though.

Im scarred to go back to sleep. What if it happens again?

Im trying to stay awake. I cant. Sleep comes over me.

I wake up the next day. I dont tell anyone about last night.

I go to school. Im studying sleep patterns in psych.

Turns out last night wasnt paranormal at all.

Its a sleep disorder. Sleep paralysis. I think its cause Im fat. Lol

Well thats it guys, just thought I'd tell you a bit about this lil experience.

Just Once :)

See I fell for this man,
Broke my walls with a single hand,
But he had a different plan,
He clinged on as if to fall from a cliff,
But love wasnt that real motive,
I was blind, to his scheme oblivious.
I tried to fight back this shit,
I couldnt, I was weak.
I was inlove, my mind i couldnt speak,
I still am, just with a different motif.
Months went by my love consistent.
But its his love that seems different.
I cant command him to feel the same,
He says well come together again some day,
But that day seems so far away.

Its a Dirty Game.

You really wanna take it there 2night?
Well fuck it, alright.
Look kid i aint gon change,
I know theres shit bout me u really hate,
Wishin i could re-do my mistakes but this aint 1st grade,
Damn what a shame,
Hate arguing shits laaaammee,
I shoulda known better,
Gray clouds follow me man i hate this weather,
But anyways im side trackin,
I aint into pimping foos and mackin,
Im just tryin 2 do my job but u wont let me boo,
I aint tryint 2 play u for no fool,
Shit aint even like that,
Matter of fact it aint even close,
Im a 1 man girl dont confuse me 4 no hoe,
Wont keep shit on the low,
And trust it aint ur dough,
I just love the vibe,
Or atleast I used too,
I dont wanna b a protagonist on this cops &
robbers story kus idk whos who,
Say i stole ur heart i say u stole mines,
Relationships arent no part time,
They 9-5 meaning full time,
Keep trying 2 half ass this shit,
Its gona take more than gutts & witts,
Either talk it out or call it quits,
My personality aint tangiable,
No sir not changeable,
Is that even a fucken word?
Anyways, point is we try 2 make
the best of shit or hit the curb,
Cus i might luv u but i stay flippin the birds,
If this is love it shouldnt be so hard 2 make it work,
Making assumptions bout me that really hurt,
You hit me right on the ego,
4rm this point it looks like u gona see me go,
I thought u understood me & read me like a libro,
& this is when writers block comes in so
I guess its good bye, best wishes THE END :/

Trip To TJ

This was right before we went across to Mexico, the drive there was exausting!

Right after getting into Tijuanas side of the border I came across this crazy cow lol

Haha Bottled Viagra (its the blue bottles)

The line to get back to the US, hours & hours of waiting. :(

Vroom Vroom

SO today I went to take the DMV written test in Arleta.

It went good, finally got passed that damn thing.(: Well

my mother and I were talking about possible cars I'd like

to look at and I started thinking DAMN THIS ECONOMY,

HOW WILL I FIND SOMETHING CHEAP AND NICE?

Suddenly my moms thinking bulb came on [Hooraayy Mom]

and she mentioned how Nissan has some nice affordable cars.

So I looked up Nissans web page and I found out that a 2009

Nissan Versa cost the same as a Hyundai. Plus theres the factory

cash back so the car would turn out costing less that 9grand.

The car has the basics, AM/FM radio, AC, etc. So now I got

my hopes up on this little Versa Hatchback. Gona keep my

damn chubby fingers crossed.

Thief With Wings

So previously I had said I had a story bout the beach, Ill make it plain and simple.I was at the Santa Monica Pier sitting on a bench, next to me was a gay couple who had just bought some churros. We were just chillin when out of no where some god damn seagul swoops down and snatches one of the guys churro. At first we were a bit confused but quickly realized what had just happened. We were all cracking up :) The seagul ate that shit up like in 10 seconds and came back for more, too bad for it there was none left lol...

Isolation

So about three weeks I got sick with __?__ and I had to be in isolation for quite some time now. It had been a while since I stayed home continuesly, at first it seemed like the days didnt go by but eventually I started to enjoy my solitude. It really helped me get intouch with my inner self again. It also helped me realize I JUST WASNT THAT INTO HIM & that I needed to give relationships a 2nd chance :) Any who, I did take a few small family trips which turned out to be faily nice (Family dinner, theme parks & beach<--got a story for that one lol) To my surprise I actually enjoyed the countless hours of shoots and ladders I shared with my fam. Yeah I know right, what a dork..so what suckas!? Lol But any who this is what came out of it. By the way, isolation was really twoards friends and yound children who are more vunerable...